i haven't spoken to him in about 4 years, and it had been 3 years before that.
after pressing the "send a message" option, i sat staring dumbly at the screen. what did i have to say? do i genuinely want to become reacquainted with him? do i really want to hear about his life? "no" on both counts. i could really care less, and i have a smattering of ex-boyfriends on my "friends list", all of whom i still care for in one form or another.
what was i trying to accomplish by sending him some ridiculous, awkward (and not so sincere) message? was it going to make me feel better? or would i ultimately drive myself insane waiting for a response that wouldn't be satisfactory to me, no matter the words.
i decided not to pick at the scab. it simply screamed of inviting anger, angst & personal turmoil. after hitting "cancel", i closed the browser, then the laptop. and walked away.
7 comments:
Good for you! *hugs* Sometimes it's just not worth looking back.
Good for you :) I can completely relate to this, as I have heard from and "friended" all of my old ex boyfriends and have had good experiences. Fortunately B is too important to be bothered with innane social activities like FB.
I wrote B. It didn't make me satisfied, it just made me wonder what the hell I was thinking when I decided to date such an ass. Even if he is biologically related to the greatest girl ever. Guess she takes after her mama, LOL!!
It's just not worth the drama.....
Wise decision, and I think it's neat that you were able to sit there poised to make the move, and then pull back. That, in my opinion, is tremendous self-awareness, which a whole lotta people don't have.
omg this same thing happened to me also. it turned out that a childhood friend I had re connected with on facebook had my daughter's bfather on her list. turns out they were next door neighbours and grew up together. after we talked about the whole adoption, i noticed she had deleted him. every year or so, i do send him msgs asking about contact or photos and offering to exchange info on the kid if he wants. he is silent as stars and guilty as sin. suffice it to say, i am no longer on facebook because of weird and yucky situations like that. when the time comes for reunion, i might sign up again. god do i know how freaking complicated emotionally that must be for you.
You are stronger than I - I like to torment myself with it... D.U.M.B.
I think you probably made a wise decision.
Good for you!
Post a Comment