Outlook

i'm not optimistic by nature. you couldn't call me "perky" or even "good natured".  but i've had some Grand Realizations in the past few weeks, coming to me by the most unusual messengers.  and while a little perplexed at first and pushing them immediately aside because of work, i've had some time in the past week to think, to squint, to mull, to chew the insides of my lips & cheeks with Deep Thoughts.

the close of 2008 brought me some much needed clarity, and a healthy dose of personal resolve. and i'm looking at 2009 as a quiet, calm year.  my self doubt and equally mighty self loathing seem to have been padlocked in a steamer trunk, unbeknownst to me.  

i keep running a quote from Stranger than Fiction in my head, "Let's start from ridiculous and go from there".  yes, let's go from there.  

happy 2009.